back to the good old days?
was just chatting with lyn on msn juz nw,
just abit of chat,
ask her when she's free and stuffs
cuz i wanna use ma marche voucher. LOL.
its not that i want to be sensitive again or wad,
but i seriously, truthfully think dat the bond/friendship within us seem to have changed.
it has become something which
i tink we've discussed before during sec 4 days,
when we chat about hw we'll keep in touch and stuffs
after o levels, after we enter different poly.
about the way, we promised to keep in touch
and meet up often as much as we could.


BUT, there's always a but,
timetable clash, busy schedules.
and me nt attending gatherings often. hurhur*
actualli i tink, most of e problem lies with me.
its me dats nt attending gatherings.
but sometimes, i really wanna go
really wanna meet up with the others.
but this just dat other side of me,
which doesnt want me to go,
and stops me from gg, and i'll start to have dose nt gd thinking.
if i go la, too long nvr see dem, nth to talk le and stuffs.
theres always a reason i'll find to say why i cant go.
see la, its all my fault.
realli need to get rid of the devil inside of me. huehue*


i often ponder,
do they talk about me during gatherings?
about why im always MIA-ing, and stuffs. do they?
i've realised, the place they have in my heart dropped.
i din noe why too, its like the feeling and bond is just so not there,
unable to crap and talk fer like as long as forever anymore,
nononono. all this has stopped, sadly.
haven meet leeailin fer so long oredi,
something just prompted me to msg mich jus nw,
ask her if she was free and stuffs, and gt a v disappointing reply.
haa, guess my expectations are like set too high again hur.
cannot always expect them to be free fer me when im free.
its time to wake up, yet another wake up call and test from God.
good chance to learn and grow, i would say.
i'll grow. =))


last day at the childcare centre,
i miss the lil children so much- kaibin&damien.
the kiss from kaibin&damien today was ma greatest farewell gift i guess.
it was a test between my emotions&facing reality.
really felt like breaking down and cry,
when damien gave me dis hug when we were leaving.
realise e bond&luv dat i've fer all the kids dere,
and the thought of nt seeing dem anymore again.


Thank God fer the chance to be attached at kids' corner,
it was realli one of the greatest&most memorable experience.
and i Thank God that, i was able to noe kaibin&damien.
the two lil boys whom i adore so much,
they'll grow up to be good young man. im sure. =)
heh, memories shall be kept and zipped.
Thank God fer the chance dat we were given to take pictures with them.
gonna treasure them so much.
its just another obstracle in life,
thats what stuck me when i was typing dis,
we've to grow and we cannot always stick with e same old things.
thats why we're leaving dis centre and heading fer another. =)


felt so mixed wid feelings when i left the centre,
msg-ed the rest, but no one reply me till like sometime later,
was dishearted. hurhur. but no worries, im fine.
was just looking fer someone to "console" me.
and assure me that the children will just be as fine dere,
and Daddy has re-assured me that. Thank You.


finally all the projects handed in except fer e performance tmr.
noe its gg to be great,great, great! VOOM!*
pray fer success.


once again, today i was put into another test,
the test of ma self confidence and self esteem.
yet another project dat made me feel so down and ashamed
when i compared my work with others.
this is not the right feeling, and u shldnt be feeling dis way.
this was wad God told me in some ways.
another test to see my self confidence dat i've in me.
its like 0% i realise,
when i see others work dat are far more better,
i would codemn myself down right to the bottom,
WHY WHY WHY??
why cant i be like e others and do as well. WHY?
is it because i din put in as much effort, i tink so.
is it because of the lack of intelligence in me?


am starting to think about dis nw.
its time to build up e self confidence in myself,
u are special and unique in anyway,
just like everyone else,
and even if no one thinks dat my work is nice,
i noe God thinks dat its the best, he's the One.
who comforts and re-assures me in every way. Thank You.


i noe its nt right to ask my sister to help me out in my proj,
but i really m very bad at art,
so just a lil help, wont hurt right?
hurting words hurts pple hearts.
m feeling kinda down today,
im sorry, if any of my actions is nt to yr favour.


service on sat, will cheer me up.
i hopee.


psst:: will upload e pics i take today
when kaiwen sends me. hee.

My King loves me, for who I am.
God's precious girl.
.... You gave me hope, You made me whole.


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back to the good old days?
was just chatting with lyn on msn juz nw,
just abit of chat,
ask her when she's free and stuffs
cuz i wanna use ma marche voucher. LOL.
its not that i want to be sensitive again or wad,
but i seriously, truthfully think dat the bond/friendship within us seem to have changed.
it has become something which
i tink we've discussed before during sec 4 days,
when we chat about hw we'll keep in touch and stuffs
after o levels, after we enter different poly.
about the way, we promised to keep in touch
and meet up often as much as we could.


BUT, there's always a but,
timetable clash, busy schedules.
and me nt attending gatherings often. hurhur*
actualli i tink, most of e problem lies with me.
its me dats nt attending gatherings.
but sometimes, i really wanna go
really wanna meet up with the others.
but this just dat other side of me,
which doesnt want me to go,
and stops me from gg, and i'll start to have dose nt gd thinking.
if i go la, too long nvr see dem, nth to talk le and stuffs.
theres always a reason i'll find to say why i cant go.
see la, its all my fault.
realli need to get rid of the devil inside of me. huehue*


i often ponder,
do they talk about me during gatherings?
about why im always MIA-ing, and stuffs. do they?
i've realised, the place they have in my heart dropped.
i din noe why too, its like the feeling and bond is just so not there,
unable to crap and talk fer like as long as forever anymore,
nononono. all this has stopped, sadly.
haven meet leeailin fer so long oredi,
something just prompted me to msg mich jus nw,
ask her if she was free and stuffs, and gt a v disappointing reply.
haa, guess my expectations are like set too high again hur.
cannot always expect them to be free fer me when im free.
its time to wake up, yet another wake up call and test from God.
good chance to learn and grow, i would say.
i'll grow. =))


last day at the childcare centre,
i miss the lil children so much- kaibin&damien.
the kiss from kaibin&damien today was ma greatest farewell gift i guess.
it was a test between my emotions&facing reality.
really felt like breaking down and cry,
when damien gave me dis hug when we were leaving.
realise e bond&luv dat i've fer all the kids dere,
and the thought of nt seeing dem anymore again.


Thank God fer the chance to be attached at kids' corner,
it was realli one of the greatest&most memorable experience.
and i Thank God that, i was able to noe kaibin&damien.
the two lil boys whom i adore so much,
they'll grow up to be good young man. im sure. =)
heh, memories shall be kept and zipped.
Thank God fer the chance dat we were given to take pictures with them.
gonna treasure them so much.
its just another obstracle in life,
thats what stuck me when i was typing dis,
we've to grow and we cannot always stick with e same old things.
thats why we're leaving dis centre and heading fer another. =)


felt so mixed wid feelings when i left the centre,
msg-ed the rest, but no one reply me till like sometime later,
was dishearted. hurhur. but no worries, im fine.
was just looking fer someone to "console" me.
and assure me that the children will just be as fine dere,
and Daddy has re-assured me that. Thank You.


finally all the projects handed in except fer e performance tmr.
noe its gg to be great,great, great! VOOM!*
pray fer success.


once again, today i was put into another test,
the test of ma self confidence and self esteem.
yet another project dat made me feel so down and ashamed
when i compared my work with others.
this is not the right feeling, and u shldnt be feeling dis way.
this was wad God told me in some ways.
another test to see my self confidence dat i've in me.
its like 0% i realise,
when i see others work dat are far more better,
i would codemn myself down right to the bottom,
WHY WHY WHY??
why cant i be like e others and do as well. WHY?
is it because i din put in as much effort, i tink so.
is it because of the lack of intelligence in me?


am starting to think about dis nw.
its time to build up e self confidence in myself,
u are special and unique in anyway,
just like everyone else,
and even if no one thinks dat my work is nice,
i noe God thinks dat its the best, he's the One.
who comforts and re-assures me in every way. Thank You.


i noe its nt right to ask my sister to help me out in my proj,
but i really m very bad at art,
so just a lil help, wont hurt right?
hurting words hurts pple hearts.
m feeling kinda down today,
im sorry, if any of my actions is nt to yr favour.


service on sat, will cheer me up.
i hopee.


psst:: will upload e pics i take today
when kaiwen sends me. hee.

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NP BB PRIMERS


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