i decided to delete off the entry yday,
cuz it was so nort me, LOL.
doggie where got type so short one, smth must be wrong. o.O
yesh, indeed.
something is wrong with me this days,
but im in e process of learning&growing.
God is giving me obstracles, tests, experiences to learn from.
like i said, this past few days have been hetic, bad.


rejections coming from all across,
just like the arrow keep shooting into my heart,
dun even noe what's e freaking problem with my life,
everything bad just came coming down,
and i read it somewhere which says,
sometimes life just seemed so good when u've everything,
but the very next moment,
it could be different, everything can just go wrong,
and im currently in dis stage.


i feel myself wanting to isolate from everyone,
and just be with my family.
i reject this feeling in Jesus name!!
but guess, i need time to get out of it.
is it because of the rejections i get from pple?
is it because that im trying too hard?
is it because that its not meant to be, God's will?
questions popping out every now and then,
questioning myself, what really went wrong.


sometimes e excuses pple give when dey reject just seems so SHIT.
makes me realli want to give up on this race.
BUT, thank God that were pple behind me,
to encourage me and pull me up when i fall.
are they the God-sent ones?


the gathering, the retreat,
i feel that its me that is trying too hard.
maybe i shld just stand aside and not try to encourage pple to come,
maybe they will come if it wasnt me that was persuading me,
maybe they think that im very irritating,
maybe our friendship wasnt stable in the first place,
maybe we are just passer-bys friends.
maybe, maybe, maybe.


altho these times have been bad,
but i still Thank God for it.
a chance to learn, to grow, to mature.


when i see my name nt in dere when u thank pple,
i felt my heart dropped, drop so hard.
maybe i shldnt expect too high, yupp.
getting out of my comfort zone - learning.
the phone call dat i've awaited since sat,
have nt come still.
sometimes i feel that maybe im not good enuff,
but i just want u to accept me for who i am,
and love me as who i am.


thank you for all yr prayers for my familys safety,
hope all is well nw, as long as dat person goes back to china.


life will be back to normal,
in just a few days time.

My King loves me, for who I am.
God's precious girl.
.... You gave me hope, You made me whole.


HOPE
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social worker wannabe
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i really love pple with nice fingernails
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"From everyone who has been given much, much will be required;
and to whom they entrusted much, of him they will ask all the more."

i decided to delete off the entry yday,
cuz it was so nort me, LOL.
doggie where got type so short one, smth must be wrong. o.O
yesh, indeed.
something is wrong with me this days,
but im in e process of learning&growing.
God is giving me obstracles, tests, experiences to learn from.
like i said, this past few days have been hetic, bad.


rejections coming from all across,
just like the arrow keep shooting into my heart,
dun even noe what's e freaking problem with my life,
everything bad just came coming down,
and i read it somewhere which says,
sometimes life just seemed so good when u've everything,
but the very next moment,
it could be different, everything can just go wrong,
and im currently in dis stage.


i feel myself wanting to isolate from everyone,
and just be with my family.
i reject this feeling in Jesus name!!
but guess, i need time to get out of it.
is it because of the rejections i get from pple?
is it because that im trying too hard?
is it because that its not meant to be, God's will?
questions popping out every now and then,
questioning myself, what really went wrong.


sometimes e excuses pple give when dey reject just seems so SHIT.
makes me realli want to give up on this race.
BUT, thank God that were pple behind me,
to encourage me and pull me up when i fall.
are they the God-sent ones?


the gathering, the retreat,
i feel that its me that is trying too hard.
maybe i shld just stand aside and not try to encourage pple to come,
maybe they will come if it wasnt me that was persuading me,
maybe they think that im very irritating,
maybe our friendship wasnt stable in the first place,
maybe we are just passer-bys friends.
maybe, maybe, maybe.


altho these times have been bad,
but i still Thank God for it.
a chance to learn, to grow, to mature.


when i see my name nt in dere when u thank pple,
i felt my heart dropped, drop so hard.
maybe i shldnt expect too high, yupp.
getting out of my comfort zone - learning.
the phone call dat i've awaited since sat,
have nt come still.
sometimes i feel that maybe im not good enuff,
but i just want u to accept me for who i am,
and love me as who i am.


thank you for all yr prayers for my familys safety,
hope all is well nw, as long as dat person goes back to china.


life will be back to normal,
in just a few days time.

FCBC
NP BB PRIMERS


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